Epicurus thought he had it figured. And maybe he did. I mean yeah, he skipped over some minor details, but his point remains. All we need in life, to be happy, is that which is natural and necessary. Food, water, shelter, friendship, freedom, and thought. Things which are natural and unnecessary are not important and should be limited. But those things which are unnatural and unnecessary should be unmistakeably avoided. For it is these things that become addictions. They take over so that nothing else matters, not even the natural and necessary. Condemned, if you will. Sometime after Epicurus’ death, new theories about the distinctions between how to go to heaven/hell/purgatory were theorised. One of them was about addicts. About how they were the most unhappy of all. About how their souls were no longer free. Once an addict, always an addict. You sell your soul, and even if you are 10 years clean, you are still a soulless abyss. Just waiting to die. Just waiting for tomorrow when you’re another day clean, fantasising about that first summer when everything was ok and your soul was only just slipping away. They said that the addicts were the souls who remained on earth. No heaven, and no need for hell - they were already living it, and destined to continue doing so. So all the ghosts you hear of, all the figures you’re yet to see…they are the addicts. Alcohol, drugs, sex, food, gambling, internet, people, power, fame, fortune, attention, love, hate, and everything else addicts, including the inability to let go addicts. The story your mother tells of seeing a girl crying in a corner. Or how your friend swears he saw the essence of a little boy in a graveyard. Just earthbound addict souls, twisted and taunted and haunted for the rest of eternity. Because it never, ever, leaves. Not even in death. And I just don’t know why it happened to me. But I’m so sick of trying. Just prolonging the inevitable. I have so much hate. For everyone. The fragility of life loses its appeal when you already know your fate.





hexed hoe hexed hoe.