January 2012
2 posts
"Sick"
I am tired of taking pills of giving in of all the pain of hiding away of everything I do to make me feel better. Nothing ever works anyway. I’ve heard a lot of people talk about ‘losing everything’ and their ‘lives falling apart’. Sometimes, they speak the truth. But most of the time they don’t. Or they speak the kind of over-exaggerated truth that...
November 2011
3 posts
Occupy Wall Street...is FLAWED.
Today I posted a facebook status that went something like this: “Occupy Wall Street is like me standing naked outside a supermarket, throwing my feces and screaming ‘SOLVE WORLD HUNGER, BITCHES!’. Good work on identifying the problem…poor effort on the feasible/practical/logistical/implementable solution.” It was received with a large amount of ‘likes’, and one angry,...
August 2011
1 post
April 2011
152 posts
1 tag
Once an addict, always an addict.
Epicurus thought he had it figured. And maybe he did. I mean yeah, he skipped over some minor details, but his point remains. All we need in life, to be happy, is that which is natural and necessary. Food, water, shelter, friendship, freedom, and thought. Things which are natural and unnecessary are not important and should be limited. But those things which are unnatural and unnecessary should...
“For art to exist, for any sort of aesthetic activity to exist, a certain...”
– Friedrich Nietzsche
I wish I could throw it all away, and start again.
Rebuild myself and my life from scratch. Move away where nobody knows me, be free of all my demons and tied to illness, and be able to create a person who I would be happy calling myself. Everytime I look at the clock, it is ALWAYS either 1:11, 2:22, 3:33, 4:44 …etc. That’s a lot of potential wishes. It’s not fair they never come true. hexed hoe hexed hoe.
“Faith: not wanting to know what is true.”
– Friedrich Nietzsche
The 'truth' is a LIE.
I just don’t know anything anymore. I mean, it’s not like I ever mastered the general area of wisdom; but at least before, I had some semblance of purported moral beliefs and ideals that hit close to home and I felt comfortable defending when challenged. But really, how can anything be true in this life? To say that something is true is a statement that does not allow for grey areas, and...
“And if you gaze for long into the abyss, the abyss gazes also into you.”
– Friedrich Nietzsche
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Today, I leave to go back to rehab.
Sixth, or seventh time? I’ve actually lost count. Things are not good right now. And by ‘not good’, I don’t mean ‘ugh so and so was bitching about me and my parents are like soooo mean’. I mean they are really, not good. In my head. And my demons have come out to play. More than ever. I’ve lost all control, all ability to function, all ability to feel...
“Fear is the mother of morality”
– Friedrich Nietzsche
“A casual stroll through the lunatic asylum shows that faith does not prove...”
– Friedrich Nietzsche
They say the unexamined life is not worth...
I’m really fucking scared. I’m scared of so much. But I’m also angry; at everyone. At myself. At the world. At God. I’m scared about how angry I am; about how much ‘unwarranted’ warranted disgust and distaste I have for our culture at large and the individuals within it. The term unwarranted is an interesting one. If pressed, I could write thousands of words on...
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“After a lifetime of being an escape artist, I finally understand that the only...”
– Kiera Van Gelder, The Buddha & The Borderline (124)
